after a bloody long stroll....

I'm blimin' knackered.

Woke up this morning, txt'ed the words;
"Why do you let x cheat on his girlfriend? was what you said back then all lies? Am I now insignificant? Why have you made me suffer? Why did you two lie?"

then I left the house and began the long walk of sane.

Starting from my house in Brynmill at around half past midday,
I walked into uni campus,
then out the front gates onto mumbles road,
all the way past Black Pill,
all the way past Mumbles,
Past the 'Itchy "Pussy"' (some of you locals should know what i'm on about :D )
Down to the end of Mumbles road,
Onto the hill side path,
Towards Mumbles Head,
Past Caswell,
Through Langland,
Onto Newton Road,
Past the White Rose,
Into 'The Junction' to grab a hot choc,
Along the Sands where the tide was out,
Past the County Hall,
Then all the way down the West Pier.

A total of about 14 miles of walking. Ending at before 6pm.

Bracchi, the nice guy that he is, picked me up from the Marina and we had a bite to eat.


On this long walk, I had learned many things, some good and some bad;

Walks in the afternoon and evening do your body some good.

On a cold windy day, be sure to bring a scarf.

Long walks may cause pain to those of us that are unfit! I've got a few blisters brewing >_<

Truth hurts.

Emotions could mess up your judgement.

Love makes you do crazy things.



When looking back, do your best to remember the good things in life and just try to forget the bad things.



Look forward with your chin up and take it with pride, expect shit to happen, and don't let it blow you off track. Fight back!



From now on, things will be different.

It has stopped...

...Nothing moves.

Not even I myself feel like I do.

Empty space, where nothing exists.
There I am, thrown out into such a place.

It has stopped, nothing moves.

I am at a 'standstill'...

One appreciates life.

I breath, my body moves, I laugh, cry and grieve.

But... I haven't moved forward anywhere.

I am at a 'standstill'...



To a heart like mine, a small breeze blew in...

At first, i thought it was something petty.

But that wind covered me completely.

It wrapped around me so warmly... it felt good.



I flowed with that pleasant breeze, it felt special to be close to it.


But one day, the warmth left without warning.

The Pain followed.


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Just to briefly let you know what went on:

I had very strong feelings for this girl that I've been in contact with for over a year.

She moves into my digz, along with my housemates.

We live a happy student life for a few months.

Shit starts to happen, one of my housemates (who's already got a girlfriend) gets really friendly with the girl.
I never got to tell her how i really felt about her, so i got desperate and told her straight all my feelings for her.

A comprimise was made, we went back to happy student life mode. (or so i thought).
My housemate says that what he did was wrong, and shouldn't have started in the first place.

The girl just.... respects what I tell her. and we just remain friends, nothing more.

She even asks how i would feel if they did become much more than just friends. I told her the truth; I wouldn't be happy.
Also, she wondered if either myself or her would have to leave the house if this was such a burden.... that was the last thing that anyone would've wanted.


A month down the line, guess what? this evening, they get (more than) friendly again.

The housemate that i thought i knew for just over a year, lied to me. and is cheating on his current girlfriend again.

and the girl is just going back on her words.

I give them my final word as they were both in her room: "My silence doesn't mean that i've accepted what you 2 are doing is ok."

From now, I won't be speaking with those 2 as friends. I don't know them.

This won't be forgotten.



My questions are:

to the females that read this blog:
Do you find a guy who isn't single more attractive than one who is?

Would you let your new boyfriend cheat on his previous girlfriend?

What should I do with either of them from now on?


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to the males that read this blog:
If you were a 'good' person, why would you cheat on your girlfriend?

What should I do?

Hey!

Heya peeps,

Missing me? Don't worry, I haven't decided to quit blogging,

There has been many things that have happened since the last entry, both good and fairly sad, so expect a fairly big blog soon.

Kai