It has stopped...

...Nothing moves.

Not even I myself feel like I do.

Empty space, where nothing exists.
There I am, thrown out into such a place.

It has stopped, nothing moves.

I am at a 'standstill'...

One appreciates life.

I breath, my body moves, I laugh, cry and grieve.

But... I haven't moved forward anywhere.

I am at a 'standstill'...



To a heart like mine, a small breeze blew in...

At first, i thought it was something petty.

But that wind covered me completely.

It wrapped around me so warmly... it felt good.



I flowed with that pleasant breeze, it felt special to be close to it.


But one day, the warmth left without warning.

The Pain followed.


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Just to briefly let you know what went on:

I had very strong feelings for this girl that I've been in contact with for over a year.

She moves into my digz, along with my housemates.

We live a happy student life for a few months.

Shit starts to happen, one of my housemates (who's already got a girlfriend) gets really friendly with the girl.
I never got to tell her how i really felt about her, so i got desperate and told her straight all my feelings for her.

A comprimise was made, we went back to happy student life mode. (or so i thought).
My housemate says that what he did was wrong, and shouldn't have started in the first place.

The girl just.... respects what I tell her. and we just remain friends, nothing more.

She even asks how i would feel if they did become much more than just friends. I told her the truth; I wouldn't be happy.
Also, she wondered if either myself or her would have to leave the house if this was such a burden.... that was the last thing that anyone would've wanted.


A month down the line, guess what? this evening, they get (more than) friendly again.

The housemate that i thought i knew for just over a year, lied to me. and is cheating on his current girlfriend again.

and the girl is just going back on her words.

I give them my final word as they were both in her room: "My silence doesn't mean that i've accepted what you 2 are doing is ok."

From now, I won't be speaking with those 2 as friends. I don't know them.

This won't be forgotten.



My questions are:

to the females that read this blog:
Do you find a guy who isn't single more attractive than one who is?

Would you let your new boyfriend cheat on his previous girlfriend?

What should I do with either of them from now on?


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to the males that read this blog:
If you were a 'good' person, why would you cheat on your girlfriend?

What should I do?